Yes !! I am tired...tired of myself...tired of the thoughts pouring in and out of me... Tired of making fun of all those things which mattered to me hell lot...Tired of being so immature all the times...


Is that real me or m I scared of something....Many a times I question to myself and ask Why am I required to pretend it...Pretend it that everything is okay..when its not..pretending that no answer is required when thousands of questions are burning in me day and night...


I say leave it..everything will be okay just let the time pass...and at the same time my heart says dun miss it...the moment may never come again... 


The philosophical mind says " People meant to be for each other will always have their way in the end" and the smart heart ♥ says dun go with mind it always cheated you..just take a step ahead, you'll regret otherwise..


Its hard to trust someone...more harder to believe that the person really loves you...


and the hardest thing is to accept that you too do.. but still make yourself thousands of excuses to feel better when inside you know you are lying damn to yourself....!!

You say you don't know what I want right?

 
Well let me tell you now....
I want u to fight for me...to tell me everythng iz ok or will be okay if i just hold your hands...
I want u talk things out with me... Not walk away from it, not at all.. Even if you're not ready, or you don't feel like talking to me. Just talk to me. Talk about the problem. I want the both of us to get through all problems together...
Sometimes, I'm fucking insecure...and I want you to know this...Yes I am, and that I'm not like all the other girls you've dated. And if you expected me to be, then I'm sorry. Cause I am probably the furthest thing from them. 
I want you to realize I'm not always as confident as I look....I pretend to be but I want you to notice that I need reassurance from you, telling me that you won't leave me. I know its annoying bt datz a small thing u can do for me...
I want you to realize that when I say I'll be fine, I probably mean I'm not cuz most of the time I'm not anyway...
I want you to call me up and say "I promise I'll be there for you no matter what." I want you to scold me up for not calling up..I want you to make reasons for not hanging up the phone..cuz I wanted to talk to you, talk everything out, tell you everything.
Sometimes , I dun ask questions cuz it may annoy you but I want you to answer it ...
I know sometimes that you're not in the right mood and that you're pissed, but i want to be with you in those moods too... 
Still I want you to talk to me, and even if we might end up arguing, at least I know you tried....!!